fill please.
Finally I got off my freaking arse and did something about my rutt.
I went to work yesterday morning - vented to the appropriate people - and consequently got 2 weeks of annual leave starting at 10am yesterday.
That gave me the chance to think hard and bring myself to finally face my fears and make an appointment for THIS MORNING to see Dr P.
Dr P was WONDERFUL and SUPPORTIVE and assured me that this ‘relapse’ is perfectly NORMAL and it happens to everyone - and she EXPECTS it to happen. She also told me how glad she was that I came back to see her because some people just ‘fall off the planet’ for months and months… she also stabbed me twice and filled me up 0.4ml - so I sit at 5.4mL now.
She also strongly suggested that I make an appointment to see one of their psychologists… and I have… just to be able to give me some ‘coping strategies’ so I don’t keep ‘punishing’ myself.
Sorry for not keeping you guys updated. It’s been really great to get some supportive emails and messages even when i’d pretty much fallen off the face of the earth.
I have been under so, so, soooo much stress lately with work, weight gain and the recent government changes to IVF rebates and safety net - it’s completely sent me out of control - and unfortunately combined with my full-ness factor wearing off… saw me gain, gain, gain. Only approx 2kg according to Dr. P…
I don’t want to be scared to go see Dr P again - if I need a fill… I will go… straight away… not 2 months later…
Hope this fill does the trick.
L x
Posted in Dr Helen Patroney, Fill Time, IVF, VENT!!!, breakthroughs, fat behaviour, feelings..., lapband
December 2nd, 2009 at 11:34 pm
You definitely did the right thing….and speaking to a therapist will help…learning some coping techniques has helped me in the past to deal with stress and emotions…you will get back on track and feel better about everything in no time…
December 3rd, 2009 at 3:55 pm
It takes courage to go back - well done
December 4th, 2009 at 8:14 pm
Sounds like you are back on track now. I can’t bloody wait to see Dr DReamy on 12th Dec….I think I need a fill too. You have been through so much lately and heaps of stress, so I think such a small gain is really good considering….wont take you long to bring it back under control:)